A POOL OF THOUGHTS AND A SEA OF EMOTIONS

                You're reading the words of an escapist.                                                                             

                          As i write this article, my eyes are welled up. If you ask me why, you'll be left without an answer. 

Could it be the care of this ever proliferating world? Could it be the pressure to conform to the barbie-doll image of this generation? Could it be the aftermath of 'Remember Me'?? Or could it be the upshot of realization that I am a hopeless romantic??

I'm asking my mind to quit thinking. I'm yelling at my mind. my playlist is stuck to Prince. I can only hear "I wanna be your fantasy...". 

I see images flashing across my mind. I hear what he said when he left me. I hear laughter and cry. I feel pain. I'm writhing.

     I have an uncanny thought process which never fails to play with my conscience and emotions. It cracks me up one moment and the next minute I'm there, crying over an old picture or some shattered memories. Sometimes I wish my head would burst into a million pieces, never to be restored again. Sometimes I even feel its not wrong to think life would be lot different if I just ran away, away from the vicinity of this plastic society, status quo, away from this life that demands me to think a hundred times before I act or speak, away from all stereotypes, away from some memories that lay heavily on me each day, away from it all.. free from it all..

   Is there a place for me somewhere out there?? Could it be above a lofty mountain? Could it be under the sea?? Could it be within me???? 

It could just be up there. Right up there. I'm looking up. I see the empty sky... Its as empty as my mind, as stark and somber as my welled up heart.

             I can hear someone within me asking myself why things never turned out to be sunny in my life. Why my plans went awry. I don't have an answer. I look up again. I've decided to let my life flow like a river.

    Left with a pool of thoughts and a sea of emotions, I can feel my heart settle down with the hope of an answer to all life's absurd queries, someday.